Such a mess

Looking around and waiting. Say yes, say no. Please just give me an answer I could work with. Don't be such an ass and let me wait for nothing. Let me wait for something. Be there or be nowhere around me. If you don't want to than say it. I need an end not just a maybe or a next time otherwise I don't know where I am. I don't want to struggle, I just need somebody to cuddle.

I think about how it would sound 'You and I' - it's strange, isn't it? I call myself stupid for not knowing what to do or even what I want but instead it's you. You are the stupid one or are you just to shy to say something? Are you interested or not? Would you be there for me? I don't think so. I think you don't really care. You wouldn't recognize me in a crowd of girls as the one. You are just boy and I was a girl just for fun.

My feelings trapped me and my thoughts confuse me. I'm like a mess around you not as self-confident as usual. Where am I? Why doesn't my body work around you? Never felt this stupid before.