Trying

Trying and Trying but nothing works at all.

One Room. No talk. Just me someone who is not the type. Making a fool out of me and want you to see - here I am - without any shelter and you attacked me.

Now it's over but still not clear. Not even a little bit. Always around but not hearing from you, not even a sound. Noises in my head saying it's okay to feel something better than nothing. But no, I don't want anymore, want to let go. You see me smiling but it doesn't matter 'cause you don't care. I was wrong. Being kind and trying to be brave is not the solution to get what you want. Fighting? I don't know.